I Can't Get No, Satisfaction...

Music | Familiar Ground by The Cinematic Orchestra

Lately, I have not gotten a lot of satisfaction of shooting with my digital camera. A tool is merely a tool, a means to creating... But like my Craftsman socket wrench in my hand, which feels like a old friend, even if months and months go by since using it last, it feels comfortable, just right in my hands as I loosen or tighten a bolt.

Though some of my recent work has been menial and I admit to it, I am getting no where near the satisfaction I used to. I'm not sure if it is the digital process, or my subject matter. I know I've been wanting to transition back to shooting more traditional film and especially Wet Plate Collodian. Lots of effort go into shooting film, much more so than just grabbing my bag and lighting and go to shoot with my digital kit.

My other issue is that I am fighting... fighting to let go... I'm afraid of the same old fears of yesterday as I try and go back to shooting the traditional format... I have this idea stuck in my head that I need to "back up" my film shoot with digital... Just in case... Well, I think I've not gotten over the fact that I need to just stop. I need to get out and fuck up, make mistakes and waste not only my time but others as well. I guess that is where my fear comes in the most... Wasting time... But with progression, there are casualties. I'll have to live with that... Meanwhile, days go by and I create more nothing... I'm not going to lose this battle...

BMW R100T Sport

Music | The Moment I Said It by Imogene Heap

There have been some difficult sacrifices that had to be made in order for me to have the luxury of owning an item such as this. It isn't everyone's cup of tea, but I've wanted a motorcycle like this for a long time. I grew up on a BMW and have connected with it like I have with no other bike. I'm stuck in the mid 70's to early 80's models, which I have learned to work on and maintain myself.





Today, clouds looming and rain imminent, I went out to ride a circle which turned into a circle with over laps and about 75 total miles. I don't normally go out when it looks of rain and the temps in the lower 40's, but I needed to get out... It's amazing what a few desolate roads and a motorcycle can do to the psyche. After getting a little lost, I found my way back to civilization with a clear head and open mind. My only thought was when will the weather turn and make way for warmer and sunnier days...